I have been having a strained relationship with my mom for a week now. Hence, when I saw the DPChallenge, I thought why not write a post from her shoes, on why I am being a difficult child suddenly!
” I donot understand why. Why is she hurting me so much? I have always looked out for her good. Now she tells, it is because of me her life is messed up. What did I do?
I can see the pain and confusion she is going through, yet to take it out all on me is not justifiable. She tells I am no good, I forced her to take wrong decisions and that I didn’t support her when she needed me. Doesn’t she realize every single prayer for the last 3 years have been for her? Doesn’t she realize I have put everything else on hold for now, so that her situations settle down?
All I pray nowadays is for her happiness. I hope and pray with all my heart her dreams come true. I pray she is with some one who loves her more than we do. I pray she gets to do Masters, in the field she wants to do. In ways she know not, I have looked out for her and loved her with every fibre of my being, though I am not demonstrative in my affection and love.
My heart breaks when I see her in tears. If there was any way I could lessen her pain, I would. God, You are my only refuge. Please give her strength and fill her tomorrows with laughter, joy and success.
She is my child. She is my little girl. “
I am actually in tears after writing this. I need to rectify this situation !
Under her feet, lies my Jannah (heaven) !
(In response to the Weekly Writing Challenge : Leave your shoes at the door from the Daily Post )