
Chemical pregnancy – A poem
Bloated feeling and nausea.
I need no scans and blood test.
In my mind, I knew.
I count the months and the days
Mark the due date.
In my mind, I knew.
I share with him the feeling!
Joyous and tensed – we were.
In my mind, I knew.
Wait a week more to test.
The longest week ever.
In my mind, I knew.
Then came the pain and the tears.
Ending even before it started.
In my mind, I knew.
Maybe you just simply felt it – they said
Pregnancy doesn’t happen so soon- they remarked
In my mind, I knew
They brush off as trivial mishap.
Happens to everyone – they tell.
In my mind, I knew.
Confusion and grief abounds.
Will I never be able to hold a tiny hand?
In my mind, I knew.
Was it due to lack of food?
Or lifting a heavy furniture?
In my mind, I knew.
Guilt overpowers.
Did I make a mistake?
In my mind, I knew.
Was I happy too soon?
Self doubt creeps in.
In my mind, I knew.
Bloated feeling and nausea.
I need no scans and blood test
In my mind, I knew
You were gone, even before they knew.
Life and death are from Him alone.
Al Hayy – The everlasting.
A chemical pregnancy is an early miscarriage, which takes place before it can be seen on an ultrasound scan – usually around the fifth week of pregnancy. It means that a sperm has fertilized the egg, but later on, the egg fails to survive. Due to the very early nature of miscarriage, it is often brushed off and considered trivial by medical professionals and by friends and family. But it is an emotionally taxing situation for a mother especially if this is her first time or if she has been TTC for a long time. There is often confusion as to whether ‘Did I imagine it?’ to guilt ‘Was it something I did?’ to eventually grief, ‘Will I never be able to conceive?’.
As a friend or relative, do not brush off when some one shares their story of chemical pregnancy however early the loss was. Acknowledge their pain and help them out. If you are the spouse, just be there.
To children we hold in our hands and hearts, may we meet in Jannah. (Heaven)
October is considered as National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness month.


43 Comments
Katrina
I experienced this…and it felt like nobody understood me fully-why I was grieving, when I had such a short pregnancy. I had two positive home pregnancy tests (taken in different weeks), but during the ultrasound they saw no baby. He/she would have been about 2.5 months old now.
I will never forget this baby I lost. I hope to meet him/her in Jannah.
Shahira
I am so sorry for your loss.
May He reunite us !
Thompson Rebekah
So sorry for your loss!!
Shahira
Thank you for passing by my blog!
Khawlah
This is beautiful, and so moving masha’Allah. May Allah reunite all mothers with their lost children in Jannah. Ameen.
Shahira
Ameen
Fazeela Ibrahim
So touching lines thay my heart skipped a beat. May He unite all the mothers and their lost babies in Jannah. And make it easy for them in this world
Shahira
Ameen
Zehera. Owais
O God this poem is so true and heart touching. I know the anxieties of ttc very well as my friend just has 2 miscarriages in a span of 6 months and I have just decided to ttc. I am so nervous! Allah save us from such painful things.
Shahira
May Allah bless you!
Nur
i read about this years ago. I’m sorry to all the ladies who experienced this. May Allah make it easy for them.
Shahira
Ameen!
Fatima A. (@Blogsbyfa)
Sorry for your loss. I just pray to God to help people and to make it easier for those who have to experience such situations.
Shahira
Ameen to your duas.
Sonja Josipovic
So sorry for your loss!
sashatheadventurer
Yey, I love poems and this one´s amazing. I´m really sorry for your loss, but you have to stay strong:)
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Shahira
Thank you for your kind words.
Ellie
Beautifully written! I’m so sorry for your loss.
Margot Guilbert
Beautifully written! I know a few people who experienced this and it is mentally hard. sorry for your loss.
xo, Margot
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xoxokleeblog
This is so beautiful. I’m so sorry you went through this – it’s never easy and is so hard to deal with. Keep your faith! God has a plan. xo
Rachael Dorr
I’m so sorry for your loss. This was a very beautiful and brave way to express such a difficult experience for other people to understand. Thank you. xo
kittylimon
Got to say the poem made me tear up, people don’t understand how emotionally and physically taxing chemical pregnancies can be on a person. thanks for sharing
lainaleighh
So sorry for your loss. Your poem is beautiful. Literature and art is such a great way to deal with pain. Thank you for your story.
Shahira
Yes, indeed words heal.
tahneerose
Beautiful post! I experienced a vanishing twin two years ago with my second. People told me things like, “well at least it wasn’t a real miscarriage.” I think about what he or she would look like everyday! Loved your post.
Shahira
I am so sorry for your loss!! I didnot know about the concept of vanishing twin until a few years back.
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afreen
So touchy lines.I have experienced these feelings..so sorry for your loss.
zayeneesha
My sister went through a miscarriage. Although it was quite later yet it’s true that people brush it off as nothing because they haven’t seen the baby. But for you, you’ve felt it. You’ve dreamt it. So earlier or later, it hurts right in the middle of the heart. Where once that child rested…
When she went through a miscarriage, this is the letter I wrote for her…
http://ayeina.com/finding-hope-in-miscarriage/
Stef @ Crafty Christian
So sorry for your loss! XO
theforeverteacher
this is so touching!! thank you for sharing!
Briana Marie
Very well-written. I’m sorry for your loss.
Erin @LovePeaceBeauty
I’m so sorry for your pain and loss! This is such a moving poem.
thetaylor411
This is so touching, I’m very sorry for your loss.
Julie S.
I never knew the term for it. Lovely poem though and yea, if you know, you know, and you still grieve.
blogsbyamna
Did you write that by yourself? I’m pregnant and can really related to the feelings of a mother.. beautiful piece of poetry..
Nazima
Wow this poem is so heartfelt! Thank you for sharing with us.
mlh372
touching words. any life deserves respect and acknowledgement. thoughts are with you!
Casey@mommaandthepea
Your words are beautiful. I had never heard of this before in those terms….I am so sorry for your loss.
Shann Eva
This is such a powerful poem. I’m so sorry for your loss, and for all the mothers experiencing this.
Bazigah Murad
Bautiful! I am crying! :’)
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Tiffany | shortsweetmom
This is a beautiful poem. Thank you for sharing and bringing awareness. No matter how early the loss takes place, it is a loss and it should be acknowledged. ❤️
Becca @ Nappies & Nail Polish
Oh my goodness I’m now sat here sobbing. I” so sorry for your loss.
Susan Croox
So strange. The doctors told my sister this happened to her. And then she gave birth. You’re right. Moms just know.