Chemical Pregnancy
Motherhood,  Poem

Chemical pregnancy – A poem

October 20, 2016 /

Bloated feeling and nausea.
I need no scans and blood test.
In my mind, I knew.

 I count the months and the days
Mark the due date.
In my mind, I knew.

I share with him the feeling!
Joyous and tensed – we were.
In my mind, I knew.

Wait a week more to test.
The longest week ever.
In my mind, I knew.

Then came the pain and the tears.
Ending even before it started.
In  my mind, I knew.

Maybe you just simply felt it – they said
Pregnancy doesn’t happen so soon- they remarked

In my mind, I knew

 

They brush off as trivial mishap.

Happens to everyone – they tell.

In my mind, I knew.

Confusion and grief abounds.

Will I never be able to hold a tiny hand?

In my mind, I knew.

Was it due to lack of food?

Or lifting a heavy furniture?

In my mind, I knew.

Guilt overpowers.

Did I make a mistake?

In my mind, I knew.

Was I happy too soon?

Self doubt creeps in.

In my mind, I knew.

Bloated feeling and nausea.
I need no scans and blood test

In my mind, I knew

You were gone, even before they knew.

Life and death are from Him alone.

Al Hayy – The everlasting.

A chemical pregnancy is an early miscarriage, which takes place before it can be seen on an ultrasound scan – usually around the fifth week of pregnancy. It means that a sperm has fertilized the egg, but later on, the egg fails to survive. Due to the very early nature of miscarriage, it is often brushed off and considered trivial by medical professionals and by friends and family. But it is an emotionally taxing situation for a mother especially if this is her first time or if she has been TTC for a long time. There is often confusion as to whether ‘Did I imagine it?’ to guilt ‘Was it something I did?’ to eventually grief, ‘Will I never be able to conceive?’.

As a friend or relative, do not brush off when some one shares their story of chemical pregnancy however early the loss was. Acknowledge their pain and help them out. If you are the spouse, just be there.

To children we hold in our hands and hearts, may we meet in Jannah. (Heaven)

October is considered as National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness month. 

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